Yesterday was a very refreshing day. I guess one could say I was just happy to not only be alive, but actually able to get things done. It feels good to go back to being accountable for me and mine, especially since when you try and help others, they really don't receive the help and or information like you'd hope, and at the end of the day it's like my husband told me "people are already set in their ways when it comes to how they raise their kids, how they secretly really view you as a friend, and how much they think you mean to them, and in fact they are offended 98% of the time when you say things to them, so just let them be". I swear in my case he couldn't have spoken truer words.
I am so sick to death of meeting women or people that are just weak minded about life in general, and love using everthing that happened to them in life, as a reason why they can't or shouldn't. I know that we all have different journeys, but at some point after having so many kids, arriving in your thirties, fourties or hell even your fifties you need to man the fuck up and OWN your shit (even if you don't have kids), no matter how bad you let life get around you. At some point enough is enough and you need to STFU all your crying, whining and complaing and do something about YOUR life, trying to drain everybody elses energy around you with your constant negativity is just not REFRESHING at all. Life is not going to wait around for you to finally wake up and GET IT.
I am however, grateful for the ladies that I do have in my life, that are like me, BUT at the same time they have their moments, but know how to bounce back from them and take the help and advice given. It's refreshing to be able to trust and confide in these ladies and know that no matter what they'll be there for me as well. It's refreshing to have conversations with people that don't cut you off when you're trying to share, only to try and compete with what's on your mind, or feel like they have to ALWAYS talk. Whatever happened to learning how to listen. When you spend so much time fucking talking, you really do MISS alot of points and key elements that are made, matter of fact you miss the whole feel and vibe of the convo, because you make everything all about YOU and really it isn't.
It's refreshing to know that I have a spouse that is very well present in our home, and my kids know that he's present. I am reminding how blessed I am everyday. It's refreshing for me after I chill with my friends all day long and we just laugh and smile about NOTHING while spending money LOL. It's just refreshing to have some tea with a friend one day and not feel like you have to SEE THEM EVERY DAMN DAY just to know if someone is "mad at you". FUCK sometime people just don't feel like speaking to your fucking ass, why the fuck do people love to take shit to a whole nutha level, and make you feel fucking sorry for their SORRY asses. Like it's just so fucking annoying some of these people I've met in my lifetime and here in the UK. It's like "wait a minute let me hold your hand, and personally tell you to your face that I am NOT mad at you, let me pat you on the back and stroke your ego". Take yo ass to Pacifierville with that shit.
It's definitely time for us to move, we HAD a refreshing 3 years here, and now due to recent changes, we are definitely ready to MOVE and LEAVE! It's going to be REFRESHING to have our shit packed up in 17 days. You have NO idea.