..I am a wreck .. I laid down just 4 hours ago to finally sleep after being on the phone, she could not talk but I said to her I love you, thank you for everything. My grandmother pasted away this morning at 6:47a.m.
I saw my grandmother last when she "surprised me" as I was getting my E-7 stripes tacked on .. her and my parents .. SHE FLEW and she hates to fly, but she flew to see me and be there for my day. I cant stop crying, I left work, where I got the phone call and because I just cant stop crying, I didnt want folks to have pity for me and make me cry more, you know that natural cry reaction .. gotta try and be strong .. but it hurts .. she was a strong part in my life ..
I dont want to do anything, I cant do anything, I just want to be there .. I am taking regular leave and not emergency leave, it is quicker for me to just get there on my own, I gotta just get there.
You are with the other Angels now grandma right where you belong .. with your sisters .. I love you..
A year from today I also left Japan on emergency leave to bury my Father in Law..BIG SIGH..so now not only do I need to console and comfort my family I have to check on my mother in law through this difficult time. This to shall pass.
First of thanks so much ladies for your support, I cried the entire 2 hr ride to the airport this morning, the entire time at the airport, flight was delayed, cried more, and then I finally flew into Atlanta at 3:47pm and then hopped in the rental car and drove the 2 hrs to my grandma's house. There are too many folks here, I cannot think, all the kids are here, the 22 grandkids are here, and everyone is happy, but I am not happy, I feel disconnected, I want to cry..I am in the room now just trying to get my thoughts together, the funeral arrangements have already been made .. I dont know what I am going to do. I am a WRECK. Thanks again for your thoughts and prayers during this time..