I tell you folks go through things in life and handle them differently.
Some people disconnect from the outside world around them.
Some people cry everyday until the problems are fixed
Some people like to talk to just about anybody that will listen
Some people write in diaries or journals with watercolor pencils
Some people simply just want to be left alone.
I am one of those people. I am the type of person that really just have very little trust in people. I don't make friends easy or keep them because the slightest thing I feel wronged by my everything changes towards them. I honestly don't hide how I feel about something .. especially if I am blind sided with stuff. No matter how SMALL it might be. That is something though that I struggle to work on about ME. I know that about myself and so I think that is why I honestly don't really like having only a select group of friends but just many. Military life sure helped me with that. LOL. This video really summed up how I have been feeling these past few weeks. So much HEAVY shit on my brain mixed in with little small things. All a great mixture of great and sad. Impending trial dates from my past, things I have to remember, feelings that have to be exposed, so-called fake friends, sneaky ass snakes, being compared to people that are illegally running businesses and so much more.
One thing that I do love about my "inner" hidden personality is that I am able to sit aside certain personal all about me feelings and know that something is WRONG with someone or something. I may disconnect from life, I may cry for a week straight, I may just talk to some random stranger, I might even well .. write and journal about things but I am very AWARE.
My new focus is just .. all about #1 & #2 my family and myself. This video really does open your eyes to stop thinking about your damn self and see that there are bigger things going on in other people's lives whether you understand them or not. Sometimes it aint always about YOU but what's going on around you.
