I never knew what love was like until that moment
I never understood the magnitude of a want so deep it aches instead of joy
I never thought I would ever cry so much in one week than I have in a lifetime
I never thought I would just NEVER
I am now done writing my 18 page letter to you. Explaining my life these past years since I was 12. I left out a few pieces and notes but know well shit my words leave me once again. May you always rest in peace and know that no matter where you are right now you are thought of my angel.
I have so many woulda, shoulda, coulda's but damn I wish I NEVER KNEW.
My heart aches right now where is my husband when I need him most. Where can I find this smile. Driving up to the coast in Yarmouth to set sail my letter to you.










